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37 Weeks. look at that belly!

Well hello little blog!! I have finally made it on you to post a little update on the Hill's life!

Today, I am so thankful for all that God has blessed us with.  I feel like lately it has been a lesson on contentment, patients, and the Lord's timing.  There are so many different things that you feel as you prepare to become a new parent. You want everything in order, and to be as ready as you possibly can. At least that is what this personality that God has blessed me with has caused me to feel.  It is hard, still, not being in our own place with our son's due date just 19 days away. saving, waiting, saving, waiting, waiting, waiting... Sometimes I wish there was a fast forward button, like on that game "Sims" where you can just fast forward through a day, so that I could get to the moment where we get to move into our own home.

BUT

Then I remember that God has so much to teach me. So much he wants to change, shape and mold, and I don't want to waste these moments, this time of waiting, I don't want to miss out on what He wants to teach me. Contentment.

"satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else"

To think of all that I have. All that the Lord has blessed my family and I with. He has done so much, He has restored, transformed and redeemed my marriage. He has healed relationships in our family, He has brought us closer to the ones that we love, He has provided for us time after time after time, He has blessed us with a little boy who is going to come so soon.

And Yet.

I at times I am ashamed because I still want more. I have to ask God to forgive me for being discontent. For not finding my complete joy and fulfillment in Him. He has loved me when I was unlovable, He has poured out His grace and mercy on my life, and continues to do so daily. He is everything I could ever need or want.

Complete satisfaction. Complete Joy

I am a WIP work. in. progress. everyday having to recenter and refocus on the one who paid it all, for me.

Friends, if you think to pray for me, please do.

(Owen's first Angels game! Thanks Grandma and Abuelo!)

Today we are 37 weeks and 2 days pregnant! WOOO!! and boy oh boy is it uncomfortable!!! Sleeping is pretty much out of the question. Getting up to pee at night is at its all time high! and now my feet, lets be real, body is all swollen. It used to be if I ate something salty or didn't get enough water, a puff of swolleness would come over me, but now its just there. My sandals are the only shoes that fit me, and I rock a double chin everyday! cute. i know!

Jeff, is amazing. I love my husband so much, he is my absolute best friend. He goes to work everyday to support and provide for our little family.  He has been moved to San Diego now, so it has been so much better, having him home earlier, and him not having to leave so darn early to get to work out in the desert! His new manager is a lot better too! We are just hoping and praying that everything in this new program he is doing, will work out and be everything that we need it to be. I love my man, he works so hard, and I am such a lucky wife to have such a hard working man!

He has been so patient with me too! I feel like this last stretch of pregnancy has really made me a crank yanker!! I never used to be a "honker" in the car, now... watch out!! don't cut me off, i will blast my horn at you, throw my arms up and quite possibly give you a dirty look!!

Even after these things happen, I think to myself... sheesh I really hope I go back to normal because I feel like a psycho!! but, back to what I was saying, Jeff is so patient with me. I get a little nutty and he still wants to go to sleep next to me every night, and greet me with kisses in the morning! :)

I'll be back soon!

Since I have officially quit working, I now spend my days, doing wifely things, as best I can in our current situation. I feel so accomplished when I have know that I cleaned the house up, did the laundry, prepared a meal, packed a lunch or the other day, washed the car! my heart is full when I get to do these things. I have really tried to stay active the past couple of weeks so that Owen's little melon can engage in the pelvis and so he can get ready on coming out!

I read that if you eat pineapple it can cause you to start contracting, so what did I do yesterday....

I ate an entire pineapple!!! bahahahahahah!!!! I actually did have some intense, like no other lower back pains, but as for contractions. nothing. I know that it wont matter, how much pineapple, walking, and other things, I/ We do, Owen will come when he is ready.

I met his pediatrician yesterday, she was super nice, and I am thankful that we have a place to take Owen, since we have state insurance! She was telling me that really we don't want him out until 39 weeks because his little brain will double in size the next two weeks. I know I know... BUT!!!!

It is getting hot here, and heat and pregnancy do not mix. I am thankful my mom has a pool so that this lady can chunky dunk on in! Well that is pretty much a re cap on our life. Just waiting.

Hey, I remember waiting. be patient and wait.

I also get to spend a lot of time with these amazing girls



Beauties. I know!

Still the same.

hahahaha

xoxox.